My Destiny

My Destiny (internet) sucks!

I haven't had internet for the past week! Earlier this week, it was because of server problems. Now, unpaid balances. It seems that I always get those every month! The most inconvenient is that it happens when I need internet the most.

Aside from missing shows, I haven't uploaded shots I took over the weekend, lowering my status as the insanely fast post process-er. I've also not been sleeping well as of late and usually surfing helps me pass the time and I get some stuff done both for my site and for work.

This sucks! Now I have to pay for the bill and hope I get reimbursed.

In other news
I got the LensCoat for my 24-70L. It looks insanely cool! One of my favorite lenses is now white woodland camo! White! I can't wait to use it later at the fashion show a few of my photo buddies are covering for my old friend, Sam. That's additional shots to post process and upload. I really, really need to have my connection soon!

Also, work has been beating me up. I guess, aside from my dreams, that's the main reason why I really can't sleep -- overwhelming dread for the workday. I can't wait for the workout session to determine what really is my career path and job function. After then, I can really reflect and decide to stay and make this work or just move on. Don't get me wrong, I love my former function and the idea of my job. If it were just me, I'd make this my permanent professional home. If it were just me. There's just nothing really worth the sacrifice in the immediate vicinity. My real friends are gone, the work is menial, and the thought of career growth seems to have faded a long time ago. Still, I will hold off judgement until I get all the angles of the story. I'd like to think that the powers at be have put even a little thought on my career and on me personally. I know I have a little value in this company, but I feel that they find my value lower than what I think I am... it'll make things a lot easier for me.